Confession

To my dear beautiful girl,

I hv a lil confession to make, I didn't like yu very much at first,yu were such an annoying lil blob,,yu smelt nyc most f d tym.. N wen I felt in love wid yu..yu seemd to hv lost intrest in me. Which Iofcourse found vaguely insultin..it was jus yu n ur frns against d world..funny how some things never change..so I cruzed along,doin my thing, acting d fool..not   Really understanding how being in love actly changes you.. And I dun remember d exact moment wen evrythn changed..I jus knw it did...One moment I ws impenetrable, nothin could touch me..d next my hear was somehow beatin outside my chest..exposed to d elements.. Loving yu has been d most profound, intense,, painful experience of my life.. Infact it is almost too much to bear.. As ur boyfriend I made a silent oath to protect yu from d world.. Never realised dat I was d one who wld end up hurting yu d most..

Wen I flash forward my heart breaks..mostly because I can't imagine yu speaking f me wid ny sort f pride..how could yu.. Ur lover is a child in a mans body.. He cares for nothin and everything at d same tym..  It's getin dark,, too dark to see..

Joker

12th sept '12

04:52 am

Things i lost in my sleep..

Letters that never been sent...

Dear  ..............,

If you’re reading this it means I actually worked up the courage to mail it, so good for me. Yu don’t know me very well but if you get me started I have a tendency to go on and on about how hard the writing is for me. But this, this is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to write.

There’s no easy way to say this so I’ll just say it, I met someone. It was an accident, I wasn’t looking for it, it wasn’t on the make, it was a perfect storm. She said one thing, I said another, next thing I knew, I wanted to spend the rest of my life in the middle of that conversation. Now there’s this feeling in my gut she might be the one. She’s completely nuts in a way that makes me smile, highly neurotic with a great deal of maintenance required, she is you, ................ 

That’s the good news.

The bad is I don’t know how to be with you right now. And that scares the shit out of me. Because if I’m not with you right now, I have this feeling that we’ll get lost out there. It’s a big, bad world full of twists and turns. And people have a way of blinking and missing the moment. The moment that could have changed everything. I don’t know what’s going on with us, and I can’t tell you why you should waste the leap of faith on the likes of me, but damn you smell good. Like home. And you make excellent coffee. That’s got to count for something right?

Call me.

Unfaithfully yours,

Yogi Taneja

11/09/2010

pls stay dun go..... :(

If I got on my knees and I pleaded with you,
Not to go but to stay in my arms,
Would you walk out the door,
Like you did once before?
This time,
Be different,
Please stay,
don't go.

If I call out your name like a prayer,
Would you leave me alone with my tears?
Knowing I need you so,
Would you still turn and go?
This time,
Be different,
Please stay
don't go
Please stay

I loved you before I even knew your name,
And I wanted to give you my heart,
But then you came back after leaving me one time,
I knew that the heartache would start

If I called out your name like a song,
That was written for you,
You alone
Would you still hurt my pride?
Oh hey, how I cried
This time,
Be different,
Please stay
Please stay, don't go
Please stay, don't go
Please stay.....

memories updated part 2

13th february,2008

valentine day ko sirf dus min baaki the..n i ws lil  afraid..darr to main aise rha tha ki valentines pe usko nhi uske papa ko wish karna hai..clock struck 12..maine msg pehlay typ karke rakha tha..it ws atleast 5msgs long..maine send kia n got a reply "happy valentines day sweehrt"dat tym i realized ki sweetheart wrd main se 1 ‘t’ nikal do to it sounds really sexy..i ws learnin..i cld her up n she whispered smthn.."kya kya kaha"; i askd.."hapy valentines day buddhu n she kissed me ovr phn fr d first tym..dat ws lov i ws enjoyin..i ws enjoyin evvry moment f ma life..i was in love wid her n wid my life too..i nevr wantd dat to be over..dat feelings…….n dat part of life,,dat lil part of my life is called HAPPINESS..

Falling in love is always magical. It feels eternal, as if love will last forever. We naively believe

that somehow we are exempt from the problems our parents had, free from the odds that love

will die, assured that it is meant to be and that we are destined to live happily ever after..

Final exams sir pe the..aur kuch bhi nhi ata tha,sirf mujhay..i wondred ki itni intelligent ladki mere liye itna kyuu krr rhi thi..poori poori raat padhana,itna khayaal rakhna..pta nhi kyu vishwaas sa nhi ho rha tha..bt main bhi kya karta ‘pyaar ho gya tha mujhy’..main poore din kuch bhi krta uski awaaz mere mind main alwayzz rehti..saara din ek hi baat ki fikr rehti ki kab raat ho aur vo mujhy padhaye..vaise main uss se sirf iss liye padhta tha ki uski awaaz sun saku..padhna kisko tha..main to vo krta rha jo mujhy aacha lagta gya..ek baar socha exmz main fail na ho jaun but aisa hone nhi dia usne..poori poori raat padha padha k paas krwa hi dia..

Examz khatam hue aur maine Chandigarh ki tyaria kass li…socha iss baar to live padhunga uss se…I ws feelin out of d world bt last moment per uska plan change ho gya..vo nhi aa rhi thi..

my love memories...

sooooo a lot has been said nd heard about yogi taneja ....... here is yogi taneja himself today writing about himself
i am going to tell u what love means to me

2 frnzz started talkin ovr fone n it went so long dat it seemed it will nevr end bt ek din khatam to hona hi tha...arey rishta khatam hona tha,,phn na samjho bhai...phn to khatam hota hi rehta tha...kabhi 6 ghanto baad ,,kabhi 6 sec baad...fark tha unn 6 ghanto main jab phn rakhte hue bye bolne k liye  ek extra hour ki zaroorat parti thi..."tum rakho na,,aacha main nhi rakh rha,,,aise hi so jate hain,,,n i used to stay awak  fr hours jus to listn her sweet snoring..n her snorin sound to me as atif 's best melody,lil cracked bt sexy..no sur taal bt still  sweetest...

i wasn't in love dat tym neithr did i thought i 'll be...

sach kaha hai kissi ne "pyar kia nhi jata,ho jata hai" aur ho gya...its simple n vry easy to fall in luv wen u jus hv a single option...yu jus hv to b in ur senses n evrythn will b great..n yu 'll luv it...mere liye bhi kaafi aasaan tha...mine 2nd gf left me cz f sm misundrstandin..i neve met hr aftr dat bt i jus wana thank her cz jus cz f her i ws able to bear such a pain which ws addictive,,seducive,,amazing,,more beautifull dan ugly,,much smaller dan largest...LOVE

9th november,2007
i woke up dat morning wid 47 missed calls on ma phn...i pickd up 48th...heared a swet vioce askin me if m fyn............................................it ws 43rd min wen i said "i love yu"...it ws first tym i really hd to gain courage to sat dat 3 wrds...miane kabhi nhi socha tha ki vo 3 wrds meri zindagi k  mayane ban jayenga....n got a reply "itni jaldi,,i mean exams k baad kr leta"...
"itni jaldi,kya??";siad me,
"dekh yogi,,i hv to giv IIT,AIEEE n many mre n 'll nt b able to concentrate"
"but but i Love you,pls dun say no motu",main bar bar bol to rha tha per meri phat rhi thi ki kahin frnshp bhi na kho du.
but aisa nhi hua,she too confessed dat she lovs me too bt exms tak rukna padega..bt jab feelings ho to chupti nhi,,thode hi din main pyaar bhadne laga..hum saara ddin baat karte the aur raat ko phn pe vo mujhy padhaya karti thi..dis ws d reasn behind mine passin in ma 10+2 exmz...

to be continued...

kitne daffe....

kitne daffe dl na kaha,,,dil ki suni kitne daffe....

vaise to teri naa main bhi maine dhoond li apni khushi...

tu jo agar haan kahe to baat hogi aur hi.....

QUOTE OF THE DAY...

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most: saying something and wishing you had not, or saying nothing, and wishing you had?